24september07 fear.pain.air.
It's 2:30 in the morning.
I just had a feeling I've never had before.
I actually felt like puking when I saw the notes and textbooks lying on my bed. Literally.
Ha. How stupid.
I finally realised how much I am depriving myself of refresh air.
Before you kill yourself, stick your head out and look around.
I'm burning all my bridges with these matches I light, to illuminate my path to what is right.
You make my heart wanna try.
PS: If you have any prayer requests, feel free to email me at wang.guan@gmail.com. I'll be more than willing to pray for you. It can be regarding anything. Just send them in. (:
xoxo,
Sky.
02:35
18september07 you can't stop me from flying.
Targets for Promos:
H2 Econs: A
H2 Art: A/B
H2 Chinese lit: B
H2 Maths: E
H1 GP: C
Hopefully I can do my H3 Econs with something like that.
BLEAH! Can't think too much.
GO MUG!
(:
23:53
16september07 let loose.
I thank God for being here in my life.
For without His love and glory, I wouldn't have gotten to where I am today.
Father take my life and let me shine for You.
You're the reason. You're my King.
You are my freedom
Jesus You're the reason
I'm kneeling again at Your throne
Where would I be without You
Here in my life
xoxo,
WG.
23:06
05september07 it don't matter to the sun.
It don't matter to the sun
If you go or if you stay
No, the sun is gonna rise, gonna rise
Shine down on another day
There will be tomorrow
Even if you choose to leave
Cuz it don't matter to the sun no, no
It matters to me
It ain't gonna stop the world
If you walk out that door
This old world just keeps spinning round, spinning round
Like it did the day before
Cuz to them it makes no difference
It just keeps on keeping time
Cuz it ain't gonna stop the world no
But it'll be the end of mine
So what can I say?
What can I do?
I'm still in love.
Why aren't you?
Cuz it don't matter to the moon
If your not in my life
No the moon will just keep hanging round, hanging round
Like its just another night
Who find another place to shine
On some other lovers dreams
Cuz it don't matter to the moon no, no
It matters to me
Cuz it don't matter to the moon no, no
But it matters to me
22:31
04september07 i wish i was invisible.
Yes, yes, yes.
You are probably really "excited" now I guess? Like I finally blogged. WOW!
Hahaha honestly speaking, I miss my blog alot. Everytime I come here, I feel so guilty 'cause I know that many people come here and see the same post over and over again. So I guess it's about time that I do a mini-update.
Life has been really busy and stuff. Trying really hard to balance work and play (I think I've said this 1391485921 times already)... But yeah, that is still the cold hard fact.
I really miss all my S.A. friends and stuff. Caught up with Arthur, Suwi and Yijun that day. I realised how much I actually miss my S.A. days! It's true that everyone has moved on with their own lives already but it's really great that we can still meet up once in awhile to catch up with each other and have coffee together or something.
Anyway I have started with my revision already. Gathered all my notes and categorized them into different subjects. Really gonna work hard and try to do a H3 Econs or something. Yep, shall try my best. (:
Jiayou all of you. I know you guys can do it!
Study hard and don't forget to de-stress once in awhile.
And always pray for guidance if you are lost, and remember that the Heavenly Father will always be there for you, watching over each and every single step that you take.
God bless and smile always! (:
You know my friend, sometimes I just wish that you can take people seriously.
22:55
17august07 leaving on a paper plane.
Hello world!
I haven't touched my dreamweaver for weeks! And it really does feel so long. Hahaha...
I miss my blog. I miss telling you guys about what is going on in my life.
Well, life has been busy and it is really difficult to cope with everything. Be it school or external activities. Everything just come flooding over and I don't have enough time for anything!
But I guess I am enjoying it. I love my life! My class has been really great so far and it's so amazing that I was put together with this bunch of crazy and fun people. CF added so much of colours to my life as well. I really enjoy the fellowship and worship of CF. Praise the Lord for it! And of course I am really greteful for my really supportive girlfriend, the one who is always there for me. Love!
Everything just seems so right now. (:
Okay some random photographs!
Hahaha my happy pills!
Happy weekends! (:
22:40
03august07 hello angel!
SWEET 16 YOU TOILETBOWL QUEEN!!
MUCH LOVE TO YOU RACHEL! :)
20:17
02august07 devotion.
I shared my devotion today. Was a bit nervous at the start, 'cause there were like 2000 people looking at you, so it can be quite scary. But it was pretty alright after my first few lines. I'm really glad that people actually came up to me to tell me that my devotion somewhat inspired them in a way. Like how Gabriel said that it reminded him to turn back to God and not do things with his own strength. I'm posting it up so that more people can hear the words of the Lord. (: Praise Him!
While I was preparing for this devotion, many things were going on in my life. Things went wrong and I was feeling uncertain about many things. My studies, my CCA, my relationships… Most importantly I had trouble coping with all my commitments. It seemed so difficult to balance everything and I felt like I couldn’t breathe. I had no time to rest or whatsoever and I began to lose faith in myself. At one point, I just felt like giving up.
The other day, while I was walking back home, it started raining. Though the rain was rather heavy, I didn’t quicken my pace. Walking in the rain, I was thinking, “doesn’t it always rain in our lives?” Yes, my friend. It always does, and not only for me, but for everyone else as well. Nobody in this world has eternal sunshine. Life always has its ups and downs.
The bible speaks of many stories regarding rain and storm. Jesus wants us to live lives built upon His strength so that when the rain comes, our unwavering faith will keep us standing firm and unshaken. There are people who build their houses on sand, people who choose to reject his teachings, and there are those who build their houses on rock, those who build their lives based on Jesus’ teachings. Obviously, when the rain pours, the houses built on sand will get destroyed while the houses built on rock will remain standing.
Isn’t it so wonderful to know that we will be sheltered in God’s love, as long as we choose to obey his teachings?
Sometimes we look at our friends and wonder “why do they seem so cheerful and carefree all the time? Why do they always appear to be so happy?” My friend, even if it seems so, it doesn’t mean that they don’t have rain in their lives; neither does it mean that they don’t feel stressed or tired at all. There is this false mentality that only those who have no problems and have everything nailed down will have a healthy relationship with God. But this is not true. Isaiah 40:29-31 says “He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”
Do not be afraid to go to the Lord crying, in fact He wants you to cry out loud to him. God wants you to admit that you don’t have it altogether. So when you are lost, confused, drained and soaking wet, talk to God and seek for His guidance. He will make things alright. Do not be afraid to come to God all messed up, for He is a God who will love you just for the way you are. And always remember, just like what Philippians 4:13 says, “I can do everything through Him who gives me strength.”
Yes, draw strength from Him whenever you feel weak, for God’s strength is made perfect in our weakness.
Do not be afraid to cry my friend, but always remember that at all times, our Father Almighty will always be there, praying for you high up in the heavens.
21:18
01august07 awakened.
Hello world! :)
Haven't been here for a really long time.
I have been really busy with life and stuff. TOO MUCH THINGS TO DO AND ABSOLUTELY NO TIME AT ALL!
But I'll pull through. :)
Doing devotion tomorrow. Hopefully I won't be too nervous on stage.
God give me strength.
Remember to pray for the Korean Christians in Afghanistan.
Nights!
21:17
22july07 Look! I'm not dead!
Oh by the way, I finished the impossible quiz! :)
01:24
13july07 the impossible quiz.
I'm already on level 80. :) Good luck with it!
01:09
07july07 07.07.07.
我在向前走却像在退后
我在用想念狂欢寂寞
越快乐就越失落
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会坠落
怀念这宽阔的天空
虽然那里空气很稀薄
我努力想起你笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你再学会放弃
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起
一个人不懂什么是拥有
两个人不懂怎么把握
越在乎就越脆弱
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会坠落
怀念这宽阔的天空
虽然那里空气很稀薄
13:50
03july07 alarm clock.
I think term exam is like some wake up call for most of us.
We really have to stop slacking and all... It's about time to start working hard!
I'm gonna set my goals for the 2nd half of the year:
1) STOP SLEEPING SO LATE! Have regular sleeping hours.
2) Spend wisely. Don't buy unnecessary stuff.
3) Online less often. Got to stop sitting in front of the computer for so long.
4) DO YOUR HOMEWORK!
5) Find someone to help me with work and all.
6) Be a more organised person.
7) Find the broken piece.
8) Do up "Finishing Touch" with Javier.
9) Read more.
10) STOP BEING LAZYYYYY.
Okay. I shall go mug now. :(
BYE WORLD!
21:14
01july07 recovery.
Thanks to Clifton for talking to me that night. Made me feel much better. :)
And for all your retarded guitar "compositions" which actually got me to sleep. Which means it's boring, not that it's good okay? L O L kidding. Or am I? :D
Anyway I watched "Transformers" with Anna, David and June today! It's really, really good. You guys should catch it ASAP. Love the story and CG. Great developments and all. Highly recommendable. :)
And oh, Anna, June and I found our new friend. PHOTOHUNT MACHINE! I think we like wasted $10 on all the games we played? Which is like feng. And June is just lan 'cause she just anyhow luan press and get like NOTHING right. LOL!
Oh and we had like C-lit outing today @ Kbox. FUN! :D
Something random:
888! I got lucky.
I also managed to meet up with Jiemeis the other day! We Kbox-ed in like some haunted house. Everything not working. TV shows GREEN images, microphones spoil, speakers inside got like what, bird nest or something and the seats suck. Everything screwed. LOL!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAI! :D
Jiamin's birthday tomorrow. Going for her BBQ~ WOOHOO! EAST COAST! :)
206's outing tomorrow is cancelled. But we will meet next Tuesday or something. YAY!
Okay I am too high reading my old posts. LOL!
Shall blog more tomorrow or something.
High on life baby~
23:22
29june07 fading.
好怀念这种感觉.
好像毒药,好像我早已把它抛在后头.
回来了,有种罪孽感,但心里又觉得好痛快.
表面上的笑与乐原来只是为了掩饰住内心的那种强烈感.
活了那么久,终于发现自己其实是为了别人而活.
讨厌这种感觉,讨厌活在别人的掌控中.
因为你的失落,你的困扰以及你的无力,我仿佛已经麻醉了自己.
好像失去了自我,无疑地跟随着你的灵魂.
迷失了方向,我的生命渐渐被你主宰.
不听使唤的驾驶盘,我的列车仿佛是在开往没有目的地的前方.
没有终点,没有终结.
也没有我所要的答案.
好难过我得不到我想要得到的东西.
好辛苦我得为了你们的快乐而牺牲自己的时间.
好痛苦我得活在这个讲究物质的年代里.
好痛恨我不是一个能够抵挡住寂寞的人.
寂寞.
逃避.我好想.
但我能吗?
你真的是为了我好吗?还是这一切都是为了你自己?
我不知道,因为我越来越无法相信你了.感觉上好像你所说的每一句话都有着不同的意思.我到底是要怎样?最终的抉择到底是属于谁的?你的,还是我的?
你能给我一个答案吗?你知道我有多辛苦吗?
好希望地球能够为我而停止一秒钟.
给我力量, 'cause I don't wanna lose faith.
所谓的幸福,
它到底是什么?
离我又有多远?
还是...我早已和它擦身而过?
当我的天空乌云密布时,你还会在我的身边吗?
01:19
20june07 feng nv!
This post is for my 2 FNHJM...
ANNA AND JUNE!
We've only been friends for like 3 months but it feels like as if we have been friends like ages! Hahaha and we can just luan talk about any sai and luan take pictures at almost anywhere. :) So yep, this post is for the both of you, FENG NVS! :D
22:17
18june07 give me motivation and lemons.
LOL I found this video on Jiamin's blog. It's totally retarded. LOL!
23:59
Have been sick for the past few days.
Don't know why but I just feel... unwell. No energy to do anything at all. Hardly studied anything.
I had like some sort of a battle with myself last night. I just kept tossing around and couldn't sleep till it was 3 or 4 a.m... The feeling sucks.
Though I've been sleeping quite alot, I still want to sleep. It's so retarded. Lol.
AND OH BY THE WAY, THE "FRUIT TREE" NEW DRINK, CRANBERRY + POMEGRANATE + APPLE JUICE IS TOTALLY DIGUSTING. DO-NOT-BUY-IT. Yep, do not.
Jeff got by to pass me "Singapore Dreaming"'s DVD. He says it's nice and I should watch it (since it's a local production and all)... So yeah, since I couldn't study, I watched the movie.
It is indeed one of Singapore’s best films ever.
I shall not talk about the plot and stuff 'cause I am too lazy to. Boohoo. But really, you should watch it. I think it's even more spectacular than some of Jack Neo's productions. It is not only a thought-provoking, but also a truthful movie that you shouldn't miss. Essential viewing.
Get it on DVD or something. And oh, do you know that the movie is directed by the founders of talkingcock.com? Hahaha... So amazing. Also, the film has been released in the states not long ago. Great job people! :)
Okay next, I wanna recommend Damien Rice's 2nd album, "9" to you people.
Both of his albums are written for the same person. Yes, the love of his life. But for different purposes.
The first album, "O", is written for his ex-girlfriend, during the times when they were still together. "9", on the other hand, is written after they broke up. If you buy the album, look at the lyrics of his songs. They portray different emotions at different stages of his love life. I love his stuff. Go give it a try. :)
Okay I really, really, need to study le.
FIGHTING!
20:34
15june07 grey room.
Okay I need the following items to create this really powerful spell that can make the world a better place. Pay careful attention.
1) Nokia N95.
2) LV wallet (fake one also can). :P
3) New laptop. Preferably a tablet.
4) New crumpler. I still love the crumpler Anne gave to me, but I just want a bigger one with a different colour. :P
5) iPod video 80GB.
6) New specs.
7) Green tea dispenser. Okay I can't find the picture for it ('cause I doubt there's such a dumb thing YET) so ya... :(
Okay this post is seriously DAMN dumb. Now time for some pictures. 1AD4 CLASS CIP! :D
We had alot of fun... :D Okay wait, from now onwards, I shall only post up a few pictures from every outing. I don't wanna like post EVERY SINGLE PHOTOGRAPH (like last time) 'cause I am getting more and more lazy. :P
I love 1AD4 so much! :D
And oh yeah, I think I may have to re-consider the whole "designing" thing. I may want to do film studies / mass communication in U. Somehow I am lossing interest in designing? I don't know. How am I suppose to direct a movie if I choose to become a graphic designer? BLEAH!
I think I am crazy. I haven't been studying and yet I am sitting down here talking sai.
Okay I love you bye!
PS: Tomorrow is Taiwan Golden Melody Awards! FENG NV! GO PENNY, ZHANG XUAN, AMEI AND SU DA LV!
23:54
13june07 it can be so powerful.
It's 3:14 in the morning. I've just watched "Freedom Writers."
It's an amazing film. So inspirational I want all of you to go watch it.
Go buy it on DVD, go rent it from some VCD shop, go hunt for it on eBay, or just go download it from BitTorrent... I don't care what you do, just go watch it. The film is a masterpiece.
Hilary Swank is so amazing, I thought she is just the right person to play Erin Gruwell.
Go do some research on Erin Gruwell. Search for her on Wikipedia or something. Maybe it will arouse your interest in this film. :)
Okay I really need to sleep now. Hahaha...
Nights! :)
03:14
12june07 i can only imagine.
Past few days have been a blast. Too many things were going on and I had no time to stop, rest and blog about them.
I'm feeling really sick. Argh.
It's going to rain outside. I still love these days of reflection. :)
Will blog tonight.
I'll see Your light even when there isn't any darkness.
10:47
08june07 closer.
I finally realised why I am always late. It's because I hate being pressured. I wanna do things at my own pace.
But then once again this must change, 'cause I will never survive with a mentality like this. I will probably not complete any task in the future and eat porridge everyday.
As I was doing my quiet time last night, I thought about many, many things.
My life, my relationships and my commitments.
And I realised that I wasn't on the right track for many aspects.
So I prayed for guidance. And waited for His answers.
I felt better after everything. It was like as if He took care of it all and things seem to be falling back into place.
Sometimes answers are right in front of our eyes but we simply don't notice.
Lord, I believe that Your strength is enough for me.
Unto You, be Your glory and praise.
10:51
06june07 sunshine.
Now, isn't that just alittle bit too mean?
11:05
02june07 paintbrush.
I went for the "Get High" concert last night to support our 好姐妹 Tania!
Though I expected a heavier crowd, the entire event was actually quite a blast.
Tania totally owned the stage! Hahaha I loved every single piece that you wore last night. Can just ma shang become some fashion consultant or something...
I AM SO PROUD OF YOU ER JIE! :) GREAT JOB DONE!
Oh something random: I've updated my
Friendster profile layout so go check it out. :)
And take a look @ this super funny essay I've found. It's SUPER RETARDED PLEAZZZE:
I've been slacking my holidays away so I think I better start doing some work. My homework is piling up like crazy.
I shall start with GP tonight. :) And I want to finish it.
1) Read GP package.
2) Do the Right word.
3) Resource file. 24 ARTICLES! FENG NV!
4) Finish up AQ (that was dued like don't know how many donkey years ago)...
Okay God bless me. My head is killing me.
I'm out~
18:19
31may07 your will be done.
It's raining outside. :)
Indeed, CF camp was a life-changing experience.
I've cried so many times during the respective worship sessions and God spoke to me so many times in several ways.
Somehow I can't help but to kneel down before the magnificence of His love.
Prosecution church taught me that we shouldn't deny God at all costs. What are we when we compare ourselves to God? Jesus died for our sins and what right does it give us to deny such a powerful love?
A christian's life may be tougher than a non-believer's one. But what about the eternal life waiting for us out there at the end of the road?
Friends come and go. Classmates come and go. Teachers come and go. Even our family may leave us someday.
It's God. It's God who will walk us through, regardless of how sinful or shattered we are. God will be there for us.
"Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive if only I ask"
Oh Lord I can't imagine living a life without Your guidance and love. You're a Father to all and THE Almighty One.
Lord I'll live a life that glorifies Your name.
Your mercy and grace are enough for me.
Let me shine for You, my Saviour.
14:08
27may07 it's all in the air.
I won't be blogging for 3 days as I will be away for the annual Christian Fellowship camp!
Do take care of yourselves and I'll see you guys after I'm back.
AND REMEMBER TO HAVE FUN!!! :)
Loads of love,
WG.
23:08
SUNDAY MORNING! :)
Totally lovin' it!
Whore-lee-days are here and everyone please go get a life and play for a few days. Then you start mugging for terms. HAHA!
Okie I shall go shower. Titong lunch later. :D
GOD BLESS!
PS: I can't wait for CF camp! :)
11:15
26may07 new beginning
Seems like a really long time.
FINALLY A NEW LAYOUT! :D
This is totally crazy. Hahaha... I didn't change my layout for like 3 months?
I've got ALOT of photographs to post up and some other stuff to blog about.
Stay tuned okay? I'm back. :)
Love.
PS: Do click around, there are updates everywhere!
10:38